What is love? Baby don't hurt me...

I'm lonely, shocker of shocks. Or rather i just feel lonely. Sure I have good friends, great family and a loving computer that can do no wrong (No, the computer at work means nothing to me).....but the problem arises when I see said friends with their significant others, kissing in public, hanging out, or otherwise engaging in a faux argument over something silly, which may or may not conclude with not so faux blows (note: women down here in Barbados are famous(infamous?) for beating their husbands so don't gimme that look), but in the end they make up and the world is right again.

That's something that I want. But is it something I need or even deserve?

I grow envious sometimes, not in an Shakespearian Iago fashion, of how easy it comes to my peers. It forces me to go into self-examination at this point. Is it because I'm not handsome? Is there something wrong with my personality? Am I too shy, too afraid of being hurt, or hurting someone? Should I go out on the town more and just engage in casual snogging?


It's scary to have a heart and be so afraid of it being broken. But I think it's worse to have one and not try to express your love for someone.....

Maybe something'll change in the next few years or maybe it won't....I REALLY don't want to end becoming some 40 yr old guy who pays hookers to beat him with soap in socks.........cuz really and truly that's what marriage is for.